I wanted to die says ex-Premier League star

A very close member of my family suffered from depression for several years. Some days he would be fine and could go out for a few drinks with his mates and be laughing and joking, talking about his main subject which was always Cardiff city,and other days he would retreat deep inside himself, and was convinced he could hear voices in his head which were real. He had help from social services, and eventually started to get back to his normal self. Then out of the blue, something small happened which was magnified in his own mind, and he took his own life aged 25. I think looking back on it he may have done better contacting one of the charities around, as they tend to be run by people who have recovered from this illness. Unless you have been there, or been close to someone suffering from depression, you should be careful how you make judgement, as this illness can be about as bad as you can get.

Spot on.

Maybe Gary Speed was still with us whe this come out could of helped him talk to someone

My father sadly committed suicide and although I've never really been suicidal I've battled bipolar all my life. Its a serious and often fatal illness. Really feel for him and his family. Watched his documentary on depression in footballers a while back. Apparently his began after the play off final. Kinda feel bad.