Was told a family member is in Prison today, couldn't believe it, I said no way, what has he done, murder! as he's a law abiding citizen and respected in the community but what came the reply was shocking. I'm still trying to get my head round it.
This is going to have repercussions on all our family's and might have to move now. When this gets out I'm going to have the stares and whispering behind my back. I have always been the black sheep in the family but this is on a different level, the same family who told me I brought shame to the surname years ago have brought the ultimate shame.
I find it so hard to understand how one person could do such a thing and the shit will hit the fan next week. How do I face people in the street who know us. Can't tell my dad as he has dementia and will confuse him even more.
If it had happened to someone else and they lived close by then I know how I'd react but it's happened to our family so they must be thinking the same as me about them if it indeed happened to one of their family memebers.
Writing this as need to try and release my anger and sorrow, not sorrow for him but my family as we have to live here